Alpha Book

Certainly there must have been something; but I
did not know what. And often in my confusion and bewilderment I was
quick-tempered, impatient to the point of exasperation--so utterly
unable was I to understand wherein I was failing to make you
contented.
"Of course I could not shirk or avoid field duty or any of the
details which so constantly took me away from you. Also I began to
understand your impatience of garrison life, of the monotony of the
place, of the climate, of the people. But all this, which I could
not help, did not account for those dreadful days together when I
could see that every minute was widening the breach between us.
"Alixe--your letter has brought it all back, vivid, distressing,
exasperating; and this time I _know_ that I could have done nothing
to render you unhappy, because the time when I was responsible for
such matters is past.
"And this--forgive me if I say it--arouses a doubt in me--the first
honest doubt I have had of my own unshared culpability.


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